Tuesday, March 16, 2010

Funny how things start rolling along....

A little while ago - a far off cousin in the USA, that I didn't even know existed, found me thru facebook.... my oldest aunt on my mother's side (my mom is #12 out of 13 kids) was her grandmother. I know, weird. However, she has been going thru her grandmother's old photos trying to figure out who everybody was - she's been scanning them onto FB for some of the family to decipher. Which made me think about Dad's mystery of being adopted and even on his deathbed - being convinced that his birth mother didn't want him.

I've also been watching Ancestors in the Attic on the History Channel. It's an amazing show, with all sorts of people helping Canadians find their lost families. I even wrote to them, after my 'cousin' got me interested in digging once again. But alas, the show will not be renewed for another season. :-(
http://www.history.ca/ontv/titledetails.aspx?titleid=235306

In the meantime I've been chatting lots and lots to my Aunt Jean, my Dad's older sister. She was able to give me some insight into Dad as a child... I know he must have been a difficult child to deal with, but in another way, my heart goes out to that poor little boy, who felt unloved, for whatever reason... (BTW - Aunt Jean, if you are reading this.... THANK YOU!!)

Last night on tv, on the History Television channel, they had this 2 hr television story called "Death or Canada" about the Irish famine migration back in 1847. What a show it was!
http://www.history.ca/ontv/titledetails.aspx?titleid=106396

Today, I did some more digging... into the show, into the details, and OMG!! I found this!
http://www.irelandparkfoundation.com/
And in the engraved names link, I found the names of 4 Walsh's that had died coming over in 1847!!! Ellen Walsh, Mary Walsh (which is supposed to be dad's birth mother's name - I know, the age isn't right), William Walsh, Michael Walsh. 4 dead Walsh's, but.... some of the family had to have survived out of the 38,000 that arrived!! I got so VERY excited!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Okay, so I can't backtrack Dad's history, how about if I try to follow the family lines from 1847? Providing they are the same family line that Dad was from. He was born 86 years AFTER this mass migration, but who knows.... maybe something will show up!! So instead of doing history in reverse from him, I'm going to try it the other way! At least I have a starting point now! 1847!! I'm going to check the ships and see how many other Walsh's were on board... there should be a few more than just the 4 of them that died!!

Okay, I'm soooooo excited! Finally, something to work with! :-)
TTFN
Oh! And I found this! City of Toronto Tax Assessment Transcription Project 1853
http://www.ontarioroots.com/ogs/
If I type in Walsh - there's a shit load of them!! OMG!!

Friday, June 26, 2009

Deaths...

It was a strange day yesterday....
First we get the news that Farrah Fawcett passed away, which wasn't unexpected. The poor woman suffered greatly with cancer, now she is finally pass the pain. I was at the age that I watched Charlie's Angels all the time.. she was part of my life in a way.

And then the REALLY shocking news came over the news! That Michael Jackson died of a heart attack... at first, I thought it was just rumours flying, but no, he really did die! Yes, I know that he got 'strange' in the last few years, but the man was amazing prior to that! Now this fella.. I DID grow up with him! Here he is, just a wee bit younger than me, with money and doctors, and he dies of a heart attack??

And yes, when he got 'strange', everybody made fun of him, but when he was at the top of his game, holy moly, he was an amazing artist! And that's the Michael I'm going to remember! The one that set the world on fire with his music, his videos, his songs! He WAS the King of Pop and nobody will ever be able to top that! Just really weird to me that he died, that there is no more Michael, that he will never be able to be the person he could have been, to 'redeem' himself to his fans - I'm sure, with all his talent, he could have created even more amazing music! What a shame, what a waste. And then there is his kids... yes, their father was 'off', but he WAS their father, and now.... he's gone. So while most of us mourn his loss in the music industry, I'm sure they are even more stunned and shocked and are feeling a great personal loss of the man they loved, just as any of us do when we lose someone we love dearly.

RIP

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

The breaking point...

Well, I've reached it... my breaking point. With Colin. I'm done, kaput. I quit. I'm going to write him a 'letter' and tell him just that. I just can't do it anymore. No more wondering and waiting. I don't want to see him in the hospital, again. And I know it's right around the corner.. cuz that's what he does.

Guess I should start at the beginning. He'd been dry for 6 weeks. Got a good job, started at the begining of the month. Was doing fine. Then he phoned me and chatted on the phone a week ago. (a week after he started the new job) I said to Dave - "he's drinking again." There is just something in his voice, in the manner he speaks, and what he speaks of, that makes the alarm bells go ding ding ding.

Then he popped into my work 2 days later, and I could smell it on him. The booze. When I said as much to him, he got all affronted and backed away from me, especially when I told him to breathe on me. Helloooo??? Like I can't smell it? Oh, and then there is the problem with 'walking' - this time it's because he has "hemorrhoids". And that's also why he is losing weight, because if he eats, he knows it has to come out. Ya. Seems to me he tried pulling a "leg problem" back in January, that was his excuse why he was dragging his leg. I'm seeing a pattern here, and I'm the patsy.

Two days after his visit at my work, he called on the Saturday night. Just this past Saturday. Wanted to know if he could crash at our place for a few days because his place was so hot. Oh, and he had had a walking seisure type episode at work so they sent him to the hospital. Trying to detox himself again, are we? (I didn't say that to him, but it was in my mind!) Oh, but that was because he had been walking too much and drinking too much water and needed electrolytes. Of course I said okay he could stay here for a few days, what else would I say?

The next day, when he was supposed to show up - he didn't. Gee, go figure. Into the bottle probably pretty deeply by that time, is my guess. It's now 2 days later, and haven't heard a peep out of him.

I'm dealing with my own kind of nightmare right now - in the last two months I've only had ONE night without night sweats. The daytime ones I can handle, this night time crap... and night after night.. is getting to me. Last night, I wrote down the times. Just because..
Went to bed @ 9:20. There was number 1. Always, just before I doze off, wait for it, wait for it... yep, here comes the volcano.
Then at 11:45pm. At 1:30am. Another 2:30am. 3:20am. Another at 3:55. This time, I got up and had a smoke. Back to bed - 4:10am - not even asleep yet!!! And at 6:11am. That's eight, count them, EIGHT freaking times I broke out in the sweat!!

I've been trying to do it the 'natural' way. Haven't had caffeine in 3 weeks. Drinking water and gatorade and herbal teas and soy chocolate milk. And eating soy nuts mixed into my snack mix that I munch on at work. Obviously, it ain't working! Today, after last nights horror show, I made a doctor appointment for Monday. Hopefully there is some kind of magic pill. Ya, right. Don't expect much, but at least he will be aware of it. So if I end up shooting myself, he will know why! Nooooo, I'm not going to shoot myself, but I hope something will straighten out SOON!!

And Colin... I've had it, been there / done that. Since he came back into my life in November of '06... I can't even begin to count the drunk times. The detox times. The moves. The up and downs. The B.S. I want our key to the house back from him. He was going to stay at our place and look after the cats when we go on holidays. I don't trust him to be responsible enough to do that! Just like he was supposed to look after Gracie when it was Paddy's grad, and he drowned himself into the bottle. And I had to scramble to figure out where Gracie could stay while we were away. This time - I'm going to figure it out BEFORE we leave town.

I just don't want anything to do with him anymore. He gets my hopes up, and then dashes them down again. "Oh, here we go AGAIN!" I understand it is an illness, I really do. But he doesn't seem to care about much of anything except his precious bottle of vodka. Even when he is dry, he's ...... can't find the word for it. You just know that the next episode is around the corner. His track record sucks. And I am just too damned tired to give a shit anymore. He's a big boy, figure it out on your own buddy. Or not. I can not be responsible any longer for picking up the pieces. You're on your own bucko! Leave me out of it! No more doctors calling me cuz he's in the psych ward, no more councillors calling me because they need to reach him. What am I? His mother? Oh ya, my brother's keeper.

When I told Dave that I was going to wash my hands of this whole mess, he was trying to get me to see that Colin IS my brother. Ya, but there just comes a time when enough is enough. And this IS the time!

Anyway, enough of me venting.

Sunday, June 07, 2009

Almost a 6 month catch-up...

Yes, it's almost been 6 months since I last wrote here... and I'm thinking I really should write more often! I like writing, I just am finding time tight... never quite enough hours in a day to do all that I want to! It's like I have something hanging over my head, telling me I DON'T have enough time left on this planet to do it all, so I had better cram as much in as I can NOW!! Don't worry, I'm fine, it's just a 'feeling' I have... maybe it has something to do with the MS and the possibility of me not being able to do things in a few years? Or just me being wonky? LOL

Let's see, where do I begin?

Well, survived another tax season. Believe me, that's ALWAYS debatable! I'm learning to pace myself. Every time something comes in for somebody, it does NOT need to be delivered IMMEDIATELY!! No sense running to the back of the office 10 times, when 1 trip will do. And for the most part, I was successful, and people helped out quite a bit. Certainly saved my legs!
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Speaking of saving my legs... for the MS Walk. Which, this year, was the 10th Anniversary of me doing the Walk. Was diagnosed in Nov '98, I did my first walk in '99. I didn't clue into that until a client of ours was talking to me about how long I had been doing it... and OMG, it's been 10 years! Talk about being clueless! LOL I know I missed one, it's such a nasty time of year for me to do it, what with it being tax season and being so bagged! But the ones I have walked, I've always walked the 10k, because I STILL CAN!

Last year I managed to raise $3,050, so this year, I thought to myself, why don't you push it to try and raise $3,500? Well, with 2 weeks to go, I still hadn't hit my goal, and I was thinking "you idiot!". Then with 10 days or so left to go, I reached my goal! Whew, now I could relax, I achieved what I had set out to do. THEN... OMG, I had clients and partners and friends and family donations rolling in, and before I knew it, I was sooooooooo close to $5,000, so close that I set myself ANOTHER goal... to actually hit that $5,000. WHICH I DID!! Total amount raised was $5,080!! HOLY CRAP!! Absolutely unbelievable!!

And because it was such a special feat... this year, I sent out Thank You cards for the first time. Over 80 of them! LOL All handwritten. It just seemed to be the right thing to do! Without ALL those amazing wonderful incredible people helping me out... it just wouldn't have happened! It was the least I could do! (besides actually walking the 10k) Will I try for $5,000 next year? Hmmm... let me think about that.... thinking probably NOT!! If it happens, it happens....

And this year, Gracie came with me and my friend Kathy. I actually walked it with Gracie the weekend before, just so that 1) she could 'see' it for the first time and 2) to time myself. We had been doing lots and lots of prep walks, strengthening up our legs for the big 10k.. believe me, I can't just walk 10k without prepping for it first! At least, not anymore I can't! LOL

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Colin... we moved him at the beginning of January to an apartment that he was going to share with another fella. I could smell the booze on him at that time. And sure enough, just a little over a month later, we moved his stuff out and stored it at our place, cuz he was back in the hospital, drying out. When he got out he stayed with us for a few weeks until we moved him again to another apartment. It's a really cute little place, and he's managed to hang onto it still.

Hasn't hung onto being sober tho... he dried out again at the end of April. Even managed to have a seizure in the van on April 24th as I was dropping off my last dollars for the Walk. Even as I type this, I can see him convulsing, and all I could do is stand at the open passenger window and talk to him and rub his arm or leg and wait for it to end. It hurt me to see him like that, and not be able to do anything to stop it. Except wait it out. I knew there wasn't any sense running to the hospital in a panic, that he would come out of it eventually. That time, he stayed 3 nights at our place until he was feeling up to being on his own again.

Since then, he's been sober. That's 6 weeks. Still has his apartment. And now has a really good job with Swiss Chalet. I have to give him credit.. he does keep trying, just that that monster keeps getting him. I told him in April that if he keeps doing this to himself, he will be dead before his 40th birthday, and then I asked him... "do you want to be cremated or buried?" Seriously. At that time, I was preparing myself for his death. 6 weeks later... well, as they say "Hope spring eternal", and I hope that this IS the time he will get it together. Please, let it be this time... I can't stand the thought of burying my baby brother!
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Aaaahhh... NIGHT SWEATS!!!!!!!! The bane of my existence right now! Started the night sweats about the middle of April. NOT a good time when I really need my sleep! And did I get woken up once thru the night? Oh no, not I!! I sleep for a few hours, wake to the sweat. Sleep for a few more hours, do it all over again. Over and over again, night after night. ~big sigh~ I've had them before, off and on for the last 9 years, but nothing this long, or this many!

Let's see, I've gone off my Pepsi. For the first time in a zillion years I haven't drunk pepsi. So NO caffiene! Drinking my chocolate soy milk, and adding soy beans to my constant trail mix that I snack on all day at work. Drinking tons of water, and sometimes even gatorade. Tried black cohash... didn't seem to do much. Bought 3 wicking t-shirts to sleep in (just got them on Friday - they seem to help) Sleep with the window open and the bedroom ceiling fan running every night. Dave isn't sleeping with me right now... he says he's getting icicles off his nose just being in the bedroom! I've discovered there is a pattern at night... usually about 10 minutes after laying down to go to sleep, the burn begins. Then one wakes me about 1:30 am, another around 3am, and another one at 5am.

And then for the first time ever... I'm getting the daytime chinooks! Whew! My toes will be freezing, but the top part of my torso is on fire! One of the girls at work saw it hit my skin the other day, twice. I guess between my shoulder blades up towards my neck goes a really dark red tone. Well, one thing to be thankful for, at least it isn't my face and the front of my neck!

We bought groceries last Tuesday night, and in the meat cooler department, a chinook hit. Off comes the jacket and there I am, leaning over the cooler. Me, who has always been cold, is now boiling! Kind of ironic, don't ya think? Dave was very helpful... he grabbed a package of sandwich meat and placed it at the back of my neck. Wasn't that swell of him? LOL

I don't really want to do the HRT... I have an aversion to chemicals. Not that I'm a health freak by any stretch of the imagination, just that the side effects... jeez, I feel crappy enough as it is, do I need to add more fun stuff to the diet? I think not! So I'm trying to handle this on my own, for now. I mean, women all over the world have been doing this since the beginning of time, I'm sure it will pass, eventually....
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Lynx... is still Lynx, but he doesn't do the stairs any longer. So we've moved his food dish upstairs and the cat litter box too. Just making it easier on him. And we carry him. Everywhere. We are such good servants! When I come home at lunch time, I pick him up and put him outside for 1/2 hr, so that he can soak up some sunshine. Then I carry him back inside when I go back to work. Dave does the same thing when he gets home. See, good servants, at his beck & call. He doesn't 'walk' across the kitchen floor anymore, he sorta 'skates' across the slippery floor. Actually kind of funny to watch. I know, I know, I shouldn't laugh! Poor old guy! I'm not quite ready to have him go over the Rainbow Bridge just yet. He's not in any pain, just that his lifestyle has changed ALOT! He can't jump up on anything, nor can he jump down (does a face plant, cuz his legs won't hold him up when he lands) I'm dreading leaving him when we go on vacation this summer. ~big sigh~

Brewster... managed to slip out one night last week, and Dave couldn't get the little bugger in the house. He finally gave up about 11:30, but left me a note for the morning. Taped to the toilet paper holder so that I would see it first thing in the morning. That's thinking on his part! LOL So Brewster stayed out ALL night long... ya, fun and games while someone is chasing you, not so much fun when you are out there all by yourself all night. In the dark. And the cold. And the spooky noises. He showed up the 2nd time I checked the back door the next morning - popped his head out from under the deck. It's the first time an overnighter has happened, I'm sure it won't be the last. Boys!

And Gracie... we walk, we hill climb, she swims in the canals or the river... she's my 'inspiration' for keeping me walking. Probably wouldn't do it as much without her. So she keeps my legs moving, even when they feel like water-soaked logs and just getting to the top of the stairs makes them feel like lead. So we're good for each other... I don't get those people that drive their vehicles and run their dogs. If I'm going to 'walk' her, I'm going to WALK her. Do as much as she does (okay, maybe not run circles around me and put on that extra 5km that she does!)
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Dave got me a new camera for my birthday!! OMG, this thing is amazing!! He got me my first digital camera 3 years ago - a Kodak Easyshare, 5 megapixels, 3x optical zoom. Great little camera, took some amazing photos! Sucked at zoom tho! This time around, he gave me a dollar amount, and told me to go find one that 'works' for me, within in the set limit. So I bought a Panasonic FZ28 Lumix. 10 megapixels, 18x optical zoom. Look, I have a Z28!! Okay, so it's not a car, but it does ZOOM!! And both cameras have the rechargeable lithium batteries. What I did is I bought a couple more on ebay, and larger memory cards too! Cuz we are planning a trip up to Yellowknife this summer... and I wanted to make sure I had backup!! I still haven't figured out all the ins and outs of it, but then again, I never did totally with the Kodak one either! LOL Ya, it's larger than my little Kodak, but I've already figured out how to sling it over my back when I'm out walking Gracie. I love it, love it, love it!!
Baby Bush Bunny - taken thru our LR window, across the street!! And then cropped more on the pc, but still... pretty freakin clear!

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Okay, think that's it for now. Or should I say enough for now? Working on the planning of our Feast of Fools, to be held on August 15. I'm painting sheets with 'pictures' with acrylic paint - which the sheets can even be washed, and the paints doesn't! Cool, eh? The dining room table has been covered with one sheet or another for months now. Hey, we don't eat there unless company comes, then I just put it away for a few days, then bring it all out again. 15 minutes here and there, so it's not moving quickly, but I've got a few done so far. I have this idea what I want to do with them... it may, or may not, work out as I have pictured it. We'll see.

That's it!
Must go now!

Later'gator(s)

Wednesday, December 31, 2008

Wednesday, December 31, 2008

The last day of 2009... and what a year it has been!! Personally, it's been a wonderful year.... for the most part! And that's all we can hope for - that the good stuff outnumbers the bad stuff!! And it certainly did this past year!

I'll start where I left off last time - the wedding. The Medieval Themed wedding! Other than one hiccup, it went as I saw in my mind's eye! The curtained tents, the tables filled with food. Out of 26 people that were in attendance, we only had one couple and a newbie BF of my GF that did NOT dress theme. Dave's aunt & sister and Patrick's friend ended up being our scullery maids, and did an amazing job pulling the food all together, AND cleaning the kitchen!! One thing I did discover was that it was difficult to be the host/hostess and the guests of honour!!!

The weather cooperated - not too hot, a little shower in the afternoon, and cold and crappy the NEXT day! Whew. The pictures turned out amazing, considering we didn't hire anyone. Both of my sons were in attendance, altho we lost Chris after the service until about 11 that night. Boys!

The hiccup part - I hadn't planned on the evening's entertainment to be gift opening, that got kidnapped on me, but oh well... nothing like the guests being bored watching that!! But all in all, it went VERY well!!! :-) So much so... that I want to hold another Medieval Feast next summer. A potluck one, so that everyone brings food. We'll supply all the 'ambiance' - it's not like we don't have tons of that!! LOL And then we can actually relax at that one and just have fun!!

This past year I went on a really large learning curve!!
* I learnt how to sew better than I ever did before.
* I learnt how to manage my iPods.
* I learnt how to make cards - both the announcement and thank you ones
* The big one... I learnt how to work Movie Maker!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mwBJTttfclg
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jIF1OhI1Sio&feature=related
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cPyNIPEK4QQ&feature=related
The fourth one - the "invite" to the one I want to hold in 2009....
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Zoe_NKZa2u4&feature=related

I can even see how I've gotten better from the first one to the 4th one!!

Then I made this one:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V7zkstKsN94&feature=related
and I'm working on another few. What I like about it is that I can combine my two favorite things - music and photos!

* I've learnt how to 'scrapbook' - which wasn't too big of a stretch because I always did sorta/kinda stuff like that with photos anyway, just not to that extent!! I'm scrapbooking the wedding. I'm now up to 3 books!! Do I EVER do anything small????

Dave gave me for Christmas a Vinylwriter. I know, you are saying, "what the heck is that??!!" Well, the idea is that it will allow me to actually take my records and transfer the music to my computer. It's a USB turntable. I've attempted it, but it's on hold right now. Not as easy as I thought it would be - it's on my list of things to figure out!

The kids are doing well, both the 4-legged ones and my sons.
* Chris has a good job, being the computer guy that he is, working at Roadata Services Ltd. in their IT department. And it's great, because we can communicate with each other, when both of us are at work. And he's great, cuz I can ask his advice on stuff!! He is very helpful!! And he came for the wedding - I wasn't sure that he would!! He and his brother were our witnesses. And he just spent 5 days with us over the xmas break!! What can I say? The kid loves my cooking!! :-) And for christmas, he took the old tapes from his dad's old video camera, and somehow transferred them onto discs for me. Oh, to watch the kids when they were little... his gift brought tears to my eyes!! We've watched 1990 so far - Chris was 4 and Patrick was 1. OMG, they were soooo little!!
* Patrick took a year off from school and worked for a commercial construction company. That had me concerned, cuz sometimes the money begins to look better than furthering your education!! He was saving money for school, and for his trip to Europe! Yep, he did what I've always dreamt of doing!! He went to Ireland. And points beyond. But he started in London, went to Ireland, and just couldn't leave!! Even tho he had all these other places that he wanted to go to, Ireland "got" him!! We stayed in contact the whole time - god, I love the electronic age!!! So here I was, on this side of the big pond, suggesting places for him to go to, and he would go!! He took tons of photos, I kidnapped almost 200 of my favorite shots from his photos - just have to figure out what I'm going to do with them!! He made it home in time for the wedding, he had to cut his trip short, but he came!! :-) And in September, he went off to college!! At this moment in time, he's planning on getting his CA!! Which I just about choked on!! 11 years I've been working at my job, he's heard me complain about tax season, etc., and HE wants to become an accountant!! Go figure!!

The fur kids:
* Lynx is still managing to walk - he hurt his back over a year ago and has limited mobility in his back legs. He can't run, he can't jump fences, has difficulty jumping on the couch or the bed. Easy to keep him in the yard. But Dave cut him a hole in the fence so that he can crawl in or out of the back yard. Or, if I need him to stay in the yard, I just block the hole! He's coming up to be 10 in the next few months, and if he hadn't adopted me, he probably would have been dead by now!
* Brewster is going on 4. And is finally allowing me to cuddle him on my lap!! It's only taken me 3 plus years to do that!! We've trained him on a harness and a line in the yard. Dave strung a clothes line across our front yard from tree to tree and Brewster has the run of the front yard. Which he thinks is great, cuz then he visits with people that walk down the street!! LOL And if I'm working in the back yard, I clip his line onto the clothesline, and he can be out there with me. He's happy, and I'm happy - will not ever lose him!!!
* Gracie. Hard to believe, but she's going on 5. Best damned dog I've ever owned!! That being said - if I ever got another Rotti, my luck they wouldn't have her personality!! Altho, having a Rotti now allows me to be in that "club" - the people that come up to us that either own one or have experienced one all come up to us and we all remark on how wonderful these dogs are! So I'm guessing it's not just her! And I've met other ones - they are, for the most part, better dogs than other breeds. And believe me, at the off leash area, we see some ill-behaved dogs, dorkus dogs, don't listen dogs... and to toot my own horn - Gracie is well behaved, listens well, doesn't get into fights, and stays with me the entire time... she sure shows those other dogs up!! :-) Last February I took her in to the vet to weigh her, before we started doing our regular walking again. She topped out at 115lbs, by July at her yearly visit to the vet, she came in at 105lb. The vet was amazed and asked if I had changed her dog food or what? I replied - EXERCISE!! For both of us!! LOL

Being married...
Doesn't feel any different than before. Go figure, eh? Might have something to do with not changing my last name, not moving anywhere, so other than I can now call Dave my husband.. nothing has really changed. We just made it legal. And I can see me somewhere down the road changing my name, if it becomes a problem legally - let's say the hospital or the States don't recognise that I am his wife - what do I do? Keep a laminated wedding licence in my wallet at all times? Hmmm... Dave got his first passport a few months ago... guess he's gonna need it if he ever goes to see a Nascar race in the US. I let mine expire, so I had to redo mine too, it's also in my name, not his. See, not much changed. LOL

Colin - well, he's going to our college here, trying to get himself straightened out. He actually spoke to Dave for the first time yesterday, by accident, since he drowned himself in the bottle back in May of 2007. My cell phone rang as I was sleeping, and Dave answered it. Which I'm sure freaked Colin out. I think, I don't know for sure, that he was embarrassed to see either of us after that episode of his. We keep in contact, either via email or facebook and sometimes the phone, but even I haven't seen him since then. Every offer of dinners or drop off some of his stuff to him gets me shuffled off. But at least we are still in contact with each other - I'll take whatever I can get, I don't want to lose him again! As for him being sober, he's had to be, he's been living in a half-way house for months now. Actually, I think it's more a case of him being dry, just not sober. But he's moving out of the halfway house in the next few days and getting his own place with a room mate. I hope it works out for him!!

Yes, I'm still working at the accounting firm. I got probably my most amazing review ever this past year!! However, I didn't get the raise that should have gone with it. When I put Dave onto my insurance at work, with my raise (?), I'm actually taking home $52 LESS a month!!! I tried to be logical and requested they re-consider my raise... didn't happen. Got lots of lip service, but no headway. Seriously pissed me off!! I have 11 years in, and one of the girls that has 3 years in, is making darn near as much as me. That I found out quite by accident, which really set my teeth on edge!!!! But what am I to do? Quit? That's just not gonna happen, I got all my medical insurance in place prior to being diagnosed with the MS... so my ass is covered should I require either of the long term or short term disability coverage. So I've come to the conclusion that I must suck it up and do my job. And at this rate, and the bills involved, I'll be there until I'm 70, at least!! God willing!! I just wish the guys would quit bragging about all their freakin trips to exotic places like Egypt, etc. Just don't be telling me about those sort of things when I'm barely keeping my head above water!!! Jeez!!!

Speaking of trips... I AM GOING TO GO TO IRELAND!!! Okay, so not any time soon, it won't be for about 5 or 6 years. But it really was brought to home last summer, when Patrick went to a place I dreamed of going to since I was in Jr. High... yes, it HAS been that long!!! My big problem was that it was always a dream.... well, now I'm 50, and I still haven't gotten there!!! Partly because LIFE got in the way, and partly because I let it slide. My fault there!! I won't go until Gracie passes on - she has never been away from us for more than a night. Putting her into a kennel or expecting someone to look after her for a month just wouldn't be fair to her!! (or them!) Which gives me enough time to FOCUS on this goal of mine!! Pay off the bills, cut back on spending (did that this year at Christmas - used points to buy gifts) Any extra money... like when I take my pop bottles in, or my loonies and toonies, will all be going into a container. My Irish fund funded with "fun" money. Focus on paying off those damn credit cards!! The last 4 years have been a bitch, what with my dad being sick (I did 29 trips back & forth to Calgary in 9 months), I've had 2 kids graduate from high school, and a wedding. That was all paid for the wrong way. Thank goodness I had credit to do that with, however, that is sooo done with now!! Now when I pick something up, it will be a case of "Do I need it, or do I just want it?" Good question to ask myself!!! Focus!! Focus!! FOCUS!!!!

I can still have fun, and go camping, but do I need to feed everyone when I camp? I don't think so!! My food, my gas - that's all that's required. Speaking of camping - I didn't get out ONCE last year!!! Next year... I'm going!!! I miss it!! So that's another goal of mine... go have fun!!! Go to Water Valley, go camping on the crown land (free camping, free firewood), visit with friends more... last few years I've been totally focused on planning the wedding! I breathed, slept, lived for the planning of it all.

Anyway, that's the past year in a nutshell (okay, a BIG nutshell), and my future plans!! Here's to 2009 and beyond!!! May all the best be with you and yours, and wish me well!!

Monday, July 21, 2008

Countdown & Catch up...

Wow, where do I begin?

This themed wedding has taken over my life! I'm either sewing, or picking out seams, or ironing, or tracing patterns out onto curtains, or tying ribbons onto crystals, or working on music, or, or, or...

And right now, I can't sleep!! The brain just won't shut off!! Is it the full moon? Are my periods coming? Who knows!! It's 2:46 a.m., and I'm wide awake. Can't do much with Dave sleeping, so I'm finally here catching up here. It's quiet, but also productive. Heaven forbid I sit and do nothing!! LOL

So the sewing is almost done. I've made some extra pieces for guests. Okay, so I've made lots of extras for guests! Along with buying from ebay. I can't do fancy bodices I've discovered. Need a professional grommet setter.... but those I can and have bought from ebay. Then I've made skirts to go with them. And have made some chemises, and bought some.

I couldn't find a decent men's pattern for a poets shirt, BUT I had a decent shirt that I wanted to copy, took it apart, and created my own pattern. Damned if the shirts didn't turn out okay!! And I even had to learn how to do a collar on the things!! Man, my one semester and a half of Home Ec has certainly come in handy!! How many years ago was that?????????

I've even learned how to do the button hole stitch. Not well, but that is my sewing machine's fault. It doesn't like to go backwards to do the stitch properly. I've had that thing apart and cleaned more times than I can to think, and there is just something wrong with the feeder teeth on it. Oh well, don't do reverse often anyway. At least forward is still working! The machine is over 30 yrs old, and this is the most it has been used in years!! Poor thing! I just hope it holds out for a few more things...

Deb S came down the weekend of the 11th, and I was a bridzilla! Made her work, would have made her work more, but Street Wheelers weekend was on... LOL But we got some curtains finished. And here is how THAT went.... first I found a design that I liked. Then copied it onto a plastic sheet, then put that on an overhead projector that I borrowed from work, traced it out onto paper that was taped to the wall, then took the paper to the dining room table, traced the much larger design onto inexpensive 2nd hand store tab top curtains with tracing paper, then went over the design with black felt pens. Got all that? We managed to get done a celtic high cross, 2 matching curtains with medieval style horses, and a gothic unicorn done, with at least one more design to put onto material, but at least it's traced out in black felt pen, ready to go! These will all become "walls" to the sun shade tents that will be set up in the front yard.

Then we also tied ribbons thru crystals - these will be hung from trees - a girl's got to have sparkly things ya know!! I've been collecting crystals for years now. You know those really tacky chandeliers that are brass colored with crystals hanging from them? Ya, well, you can sometimes find them cheap at garage sales, for like $5. The crystals got taken off, the tacky brass got thrown out. Which left me with lots and lots of crystals... knew I was going to use them someday!!

I even made myself a really amazing dress!! Out of a $4, 2nd hand burgandy queen sized duvet cover, which was in really great shape. Took out the zipper, undid the stitching, and proceeded to cut out the pattern. A real one this time!! Altho I did change a few things on it!! Like, no zipper. I made it larger than I required, sewed in D-rings into the back seams, and viola, it has lacing in the back!! It has those really long sleeves and a back hem that drags. But I also wanted to show white inside sleeves, but not wear a chemise or tunic under it. So I created sleeves out of a white sheet, and once I stitched them up with the machine, I hand stitched them to the inside of the dress sleeve to the trim that goes around the bicep area of my arm. Hard to explain, but looks cool. Yes, yes, pictures will be coming!! And it only took me 4 weeks to do!

And the yard.... bought tons of dirt, tons of plants, and just as everything is blooming.... we get hail. Oh wait! Let's hail the next week too! Aaahhh, not done yet!! Let's hail one more week!! Just for good measure! Sheesh!! But I just checked the 2 week forcast from the weather channel, it looks like we'll be dying from the heat by time the wedding is on. Oh joy! NOT! Now I have to go out and trim my poor plants, clean off all the dead stuff, fertize the poor things, and hope they come back, all pretty! Thank goodness we have a covered deck - you should have seen me scrambling to get all my pots under cover!

And because of the hail and horendous winds ...... one of the main suppliers of our famous Taber Corn got totally wiped out. Which was going to be one of the foods for our meal. Hope Safeway has a ton of corn! Who knows! Maybe it will just be burgers we'll be serving!

The music... between what I had (which was lots, believe me!), and iTunes... I have cds burned to play Friday and Saturday, with a combo set for Sunday and Monday in the front yard. Going to put the speakers from the stereo downstairs up into the rumpus room windows, and play out the windows. How's that for ambiance? And this stereo is great... I can put like 20 cds in it, and let it run....

The deck will be playing my iPod... have it all timed out to play certain music at a certain time. The back kitchen door will have a cd player playing back there, with either really Renaissance music, or the Gregorian chant thing happening, or a mixture of both. It will only play 1 cd at a time.. haven't quiet got that figured out yet.

Dave hasn't got off easy either! All the windows of the house have been cleaned, inside and out. He gave the deck a new coat of paint. He's trying to get electricity onto the deck, with a plug in and lights. The plug in works, the lights... not so much. He's going to talk to his electrician buddy tomorrow to find out what the problem is. He's screwed in 6 flag poles (the smaller cheaper ones that you can get from Canadian Tire) onto the front of the house. And figured out a way to hang the flags I've bought from them, so that we will have medieval style flags hanging on the front of the house. I know, overboard, right? LOL But it's the party that I'm planning - the wedding itself is taken care of. Sorta. Still have to pin down the exact wording... Oh, and he's been doing the daily cooking and cleaning while I've been sewing, sewing, sewing!! Poor man. He must really love me!!

Oh, and then I bought this really cool bubble machine! You should see this thing! It freaking takes 8 AA batteries, but man, does it blow bubbles!! You can't help but giggle when this thing is going and you see bubbles just pouring out of it and floating skywards!!

I've ordered the cake from Wal-mart. Hey, it's just a slab cake, decorated up with the theme. Haven't quite got that down pat either... waiting for a plastic castle front to come in to be put onto the cake. Ya, pictures!!

I have the next 3 weeks off from work. 2 weeks before the wedding (well, not quite now), and 1 week after - to collapse or have a heart attack or something like that. Oh, wait, honeymoon. Ya, probably will take a few days, once everything is settled and put away, to go back to the place where Dave proposed. A much needed time of peace and quiet. And no sewing machine!!

So I think I have got you guys up to speed. I really must finish the sewing, and find my inside of the house once again. Right now it is covered, room to room, with all sorts of sewing "stuff' - material, trims, patterns, etc. I be thinking I really shouldn't leave it that way, not with guests arriving later next week!! Really should tidy up, put things away, pull out my medieval accessories... yep, it's on one my to-do lists!!

TTFN!

Monday, March 24, 2008

Gord Robson passed away...

Gord Robson was one of my favorite announcers on The River, our Lethbridge FM station. He did the morning show, and I won my trip to Denmark with/thru him in 2002. Then he suddenly wasn't there any longer.... either he quit or got fired... and I missed him.

I also listened to him on 630 CHED, when I was a teenager. 630 CHED was THE best radio station ever!! My parents were listening to country AM, with The Farm Report done by Hoss Hammer. So when you discover an AM station that played current music ... it was simply wonderful!! And they would have their listings of the Top 10, or whatever, posted at The Bay, beside the 45's. Man, talk about a walk down memory lane!!

News came thru this morning that he passed away this past Friday in Edmonton. I went digging and found this site, called BC Radio History that is very cut and dried, but with a very good picture of him.

GORD ROBSON (1951-2008)
Veteran broadcaster Gord Robson, whose career spanned five different decades, died last week at his home in Edmonton. He was 56. Robson worked at many Canadian radio stations, including a decade at the legendary CKLG Vancouver
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Guess I'll just keep on missing him.....